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今年"十一"家里来了不少客人，五位来自美国的教授学者让我家热闹非凡。敦敦不亦乐乎地忙着招呼来自地球另一端的客人们。敦爸不在家，敦敦充当导游作了陈宅的介绍。详细讲解了他老爹的收藏。从佛，画到家具一一道来。还把自己的私藏皮影拿出来展示。大家都饶有兴致地楼上楼下地跟着着煞有介事的小孩溜达。
没想到桌上的一张敦敦的数学假期作业题，让这帮顶尖美国教授们赶上了兴趣。几位加起来超过260岁的老教授们，摩拳擦掌打算大干一场，挑战一下自己的智力极限，顺便也帮敦敦一把，算是给这位初次见面的中国小孩一个国庆节的'大礼'。出乎我的意料，20分钟过去了，这帮毕业于斯坦福，哈佛的超高学历团队努力未见结果。教授们很不服气，他们都自认为自己小时候都是超常儿童，现在逻辑能力也是一流的，从面部表情看，PS教授对没能作出小学数学作业很受打击，JB教授也觉得很没面子，不肯就此罢休，临走前愤愤地抓起笔记下题目，准备在回国的飞机上再战一个回合，与小五的数学题一决高低。
为了把他们从失败的沮丧中拉出来，我向他们解释了我家柜子上雕刻的'福'字的字面意思，有衣穿，有屋住，有饭吃，有田种。这帮致力于工作压力和健康研究的教授们一分钟之内总算弄明白了啥叫'幸福'。他们也许没想到'工作压力'原来也是幸福的一部分。因为很多人没有找到工作，因而也就没了生计，还有很多人为生存一辈子都不得不干着自己十分不喜欢的工作，所以今天的中国大环境底下，如果你还干着自己喜欢的事，有点压力也算幸福了。可幸福不见的就健康，很多人在追求幸福的过程中幸福地死去了。我跟他们讲，强调压力和健康的关系没错，可是舍不得孩子打不了狼，在如今全球化的竞争中，中国要抓紧时机崛起就不得不用几代人的命来换。他们似懂非懂地点头。
我还告诉他们，心理学和社会学流行病学是都被西方主导，加上学术俗人都逃不脱的功利思想，我们很难对中国问题的研究有所突破，再说了，二十年来，西方学术圈子也不是很有新意，无非在几个基本理论里打转，显然这个领域的研究速度远远落在了飞速发展的社会后面，我建议我认识的年轻学者们，少看西方文献，花一两年时间深入地地了解和预见自己国家的国民文化的未来，或许我们能搞出令世界惊喜的东西来。更重要的是学会自己思考，靠自己研究出中国问题的解决办法，听我说到这，大教授们都不解但严肃地看着我。
吃晚饭的时候到了，黔香阁的贵州菜打倒了众教授，对'辣'他们是爱恨交加，就向大家面对工作压力一样，难对付，但又离不了。
Finding something you never ever thought you could have, and only dreampt the most surreal dreams about comes true. Its unimaginable, its so drastic and a big deal but when you find it and once again loose it, and just can't seem to let go that when you start to loose hope. Everything everyone ever wants, is what you can not have no matter how much you want it or how much you try. You can sacrific but to know it wasn't suppose to happen doesn't that make you wonder that you weren't suppose to go through this. Things come and go, and the things that really matter go too. No matter how much you want it, or how hard you hold on, everything just comes and goes. It makes you think what life is really about, is it about happiness or once that comes is that just going to get taken away too? The only thing that seems to like to stick around is misary accompanied by pain and hurt. They make a great trio, no matter how much you just want them to go, they stick together and are the most difficult things to push back out when they arrive. Pain, Hurt, and Misary are three of lifes worst qualities, and yet your stuck with them for your whole life, no matter how much you hate them some things just never change and never will. Lifes a bitch, try not to help pass on the trio to anyone else, no matter how bad it is, no one deserves it no matter what.
Sometimes when your so far down all you want is for someone to stick with you at your side to help you up, just so that you know your not alone and you wont have to be untill your ready. Sometimes its nice to know how much people care and how much they really appriciate you. Sometimes you just wish things were different, and that things would just change this once for you, because its something you want so badly. Sometimes life just sucks, and most the people in it are just a whole lot of ignorant people who are just taking up the empty room left inside of you, just so this one time you can feel like no ones missing. Sometimes you try so hard to convince yourself of one thing so that much it seems unbelievable, andjust sometimes it hurts to know you can't even tell yourself the truth and you think of lies to cover it all up. Sometimes what you think is best is the worst thing possible and anything but the truth is just a lie no matter how big or small it may be. The truth may hurt, but a lie is just as bad or so much worse. Sometimes its just nice to hear a lie to cover everything else up, and make you smile for once no matter what the outcome at that point in time at least its happiness. Sometimes you just do what it takes, and this time isn't sometimes.
I pretend to be strong, when in reality, I am dying inside. But I have to be strong, for my family...at least, that's what I tell myself. If I am not strong for them then who will be?
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